UGH! The charade is OVER. Everyone gets the wrong impression of you I really wish they knew the real you.
People are so fucking blind. . open up people.

I was stupid for a while.

Resolution #1: uggg - will obviously lose 20 lbs. #2: always put last night's panties in the laundry basket. Equally important: will find nice sensible boyfriend and stop forming romantic attachments to any of the following: alcoholics, workoholics, sexaholics, commitment-phobics, peeping toms, megalomaniacs, emotional fuckwits, or perverts. Will especially stop fantasizing about a particular person who embodies all these things

i'll take care of you.

A change in your daily routine puts you in front of someone you need to know better.


That's my horoscope for today.

It all started with a chair ( I need to stop quoting Juno)

So here's what I'm thinking, if I can quit buying packs of cigarettes, and going from 10-15 a day, to one, and eventually to none- then I can do what I always am bad at doing and that's working out.

I've discovered a new way of doing it so I'm not bored out of my skull, I'll put a workout video on and then make a pumpin mix on my ipod and just mute the tv and listen to the music while I work out, might work, I'll give it a shot.

I'm trying to get in shape, and look shexy.
Done.

808's and heartbreaks

-kanye's new album
- running, daily.
- hip/hop dance classes each tuesday.
- holiday shopping and preparation
-lots of broken social scene

aka, my life lately.

it's 1-2-3, 1-2-3 keep it up!

Once again, Everytime I Die- never cease to amaze me when I see them live. They are my stress release.
I did bring my camera, got up front took a few photos of a band called Stick to Your Guns, they were pretty good live, I couldn't get pictures of Everytime I Die because it got too crazy in there and I wanted to go nuts instead of photographing. Here's two pictures I liked from Stick to Your Guns.







In other words, I can really thank a certain heartless person for doing what he has done to me because honestly it's one more thing in my life that just made me stronger, and made me grow from. I've picked up running again, cutting back on the cigarettes, I'm starting a hip hop dance class at Towson December 4th, it's one night a week.
I've been playing my keyboard a lot lately, writing more music, discovering more bands, and researching about more music.
I've been meeting new people and i've been keeping busy.
So thank you, for screwing me over with not even an explanation because I'm slowly realizing how great life can be and how much stronger I am as a person, so thanks for fucking me over, because it's done great things for me.

Shine on you crazy diamond.

it's been a while! Guess i just haven't had really outstanding news since I came back from New York everything has been pretty dull, that Monday I got back I pretty much spent the week alone by personal choice I really needed it, I needed time to think. I feel like New York will always have my heart and when I feel ready to leave here, you will find me there, you can count on it, I just don't know when I'll be ready.

Here's one or two pictures from New York, but I took over 200.





In other news, I met someone, and pretty much had the most amazing weekend in a while last week. I don't need to explain anymore. There's just one bigggg smile on my face.

No more updates right now!